pretensions is not a cure

It's not that easy to pretend that your ok after all the pain you felt and after all the tears you've cried. It's not easy to say I'm ok even if I'm not . You keep on saying im good but your mind and you heart keep on shouting no! I'm not! I dont know why I made this to myself. There's no answer and I can even understand. I know someday everything will be fine.